Burn

A few years ago i severely burned my hand, never got rid of the feeling ever since, it was a violent, sudden rush of adrenaline followed by a deep sense of calm and pleasure, i felt like touching god. It was the most intense feeling i´ve ever experienced, the complete opposite was when i took some medicine a doctor told me i needed, i was in a deep period of depression and i had to take them so i didn´t feel ill or sad, the thing is i didn´t feel anything at all, i felt dead, it wasn´t long before i stopped taking them. I´ve managed to direct my obsessions towards art and whenever i´m working on it, i am either filled with an enormous joy or a deep sadness, i feel like burning inside.